Lately, my State of Mind has been a sort of weird feeling of numbness. Or at least this is what people keep telling me nowadays. I’ve been told that I don’t often express my emotions, or that I don’t show people how happy I am, or that they are worried because I get neither excited nor disappointed about whatever had happened. Honestly, I don’t feel numb. I feel still – peacefull. It’s not that I’m absent of emotions, it’s just that I am aware that this is just a phase. There’s no one to blame or punish – especially myself. I’ve been reading more, practicing yoga more regularly, meditating (especially on the bible), praying… I’ve been spending more time observing and enjoying the moment – even though it’s not ideal time in my life.
I keep thinking of the first part of Psalm 46:11: “be still and know that I am God.” Yes, King David’s battles and enemies were much worse than mine, but I think this is still applicable to my life today. I keep myself often repeating these words and they help me cope with this crazy time I’m in.
Be still and know…
What’s your state of mind at the moment?