It’s my birthday today! I am now 31-years-old! Can you believe that?! I sure can’t. I have never pictured myself as an actual grown-up and I guess that being 31 makes it impossible to pretend I’m not. I have pictured myself as a 30-year-old person, and I was fine with that last year. But turning 31 makes it a bit weird. I don’t know why, though.
My husband had asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I said that I wanted doughnuts for breakfast. There’s an amazing doughnut shop near us called Sweet Dozen. It’s so good that we need to come up with special reasons to go there so we don’t go all the time. So this is what I woke up to this morning:
I have the best husband ever, don’t I?
Anyways… For the last couple of years, I stopped having birthday parties or celebrating it with tons of people around me. Don’t get me wrong… I’m not trying to hide how old I am, and it’s not that I don’t like my birthday. I love not being in my twenties anymore and I love my birthday. It’s just that I’m feeling more introspective.
So I stopped to reflect on how far I’ve grown the last year and where I want to be next year. I guess it’s the same of what some people do on New Year’s day. Well, since blogging is sharing. I have decided to share my birthday thoughts with you.
Honestly, I’m not sure I was able to grow much this last year. I’ve done a lot, but I haven’t grown much, especially professionally which is something that bothers me a lot. But it comes with supporting your spouse. And if I can keep reminding myself of why I’m in this hiatus I’ll be fine. What I can say is that I know I’ve grown much spiritually. As a Christian, I’ve gone back to serving the Lord and I am more conscious of my alone time with Him, which is something that I need. Also, I have been able to be more regular with my yoga practices. Actually, combining yoga and my meditation with my alone time with God has been something that has helped me with both of those aspects of my life. Lastly, I feel like I’m less anxious compared to last year. I’ve learned more about myself and I feel as if I can control my emotions better. Well… look at that! I guess I have grown a lot after all.
I’m not sure if I’ll be able to go back to work by my next birthday, but I hope to be able to find something that’ll help me focus and establish a routine. I want to continue some of these new habits I have developed and make them even more regular. I think I can do that. I want to be better and better with my photography. Lastly, I want to look back and realized that I have complained less. Yeah… That’s totally doable, right?
I choose this picture as a metaphor for how I am feeling today. Black and white, because it shows more depth and more contrast; a long cycle that sometimes looks like it’s broken, but it’s not.
I would like to say ‘thank you’ to all the people everywhere who are wishing me a happy birthday. It means a lot to me that people have taken some of their time to think of me and wish we well. My husband says he has more surprises for today. Let’s wait and see… What I’d love to know is how you spend your birthday? Share it with me on the comment section bellow. And I’ll see you all next time.